And we meet again....

So...it is that time a night again...3 am and I am up and pretty excited that HBO has on the movie "He Just not that into you". I love this movie and gives me something decent to watch instead of infomercials. I can sometimes be a sucker for infomercials and that is not good to mix insomnia with my bank account :)

I had a great/rough couple of days....on Thursday I was headed to my OB appointment to check on baby #4, only to get a phone call that my doctor had to cancel because she got called out to a delivery and wouldn't be in Friday and asked if I wouldn't mind coming Monday so she could see me instead of another doctor in her practice. Of course I agreed...and then immediately got off the phone and the tears begin to flow. I don't know why really...well, I am lying...I know why, however, it was mainly hormonal with no solid grounds. I was really wanting some kind of update and my doctor to say "You are ok...baby is ok...and you are going to make it!"

You see, as of lately, I feel as though my body and mind are at constant battle with one another. My mind wants to go go go with to-do list's and activities with my kiddos, however my body decides to start contracting, hurting and telling me to stop. This is definitely the hardest part of this pregnacy. So, after the phone call and the waterworks, my mom and husband devised a "Candace needs to rest" plan and arranged for the 3 kids to stay at Granny and PaPa's for a couple of days.

It ended up being exactly what I needed, however, it was bad for the hubs because he ended up running lots of fever, drinking lots of fluids and going to the doctor. He did get to sleep and I followed him around with Lysol so I wouldn't get sick and to try as hard as possible to keep the house as germ free as possible for when the kids came home.

So the entire family is under one roof again...the boys are sleeping like babies....Katelyn has made her way to our bed (still working on every night being an all nighter in her room...but we do have progress) and I am up watching TV and playing FreeCell. Even posting a blog :) All is right in the Guy household.

Until 3am again :)

Pregnancy Insomnia

Well...it is 2:30 am and I am UP UP UP....I slept for a couple of hours, however, between the various bathroom breaks and the 2 year old wandering in here...I am up. So I turn to HGTV and the computer.

Honestly, I think my mind is just racing....I CANNOT believe that in 3 1/2 weeks...or less there will be a new lil' "Guy" in our household. I am trying to picture it...the diapers, the sleepless nights (isn't that now?) LOL and the endless feedings....and the love, the smells, the tiny clothes and the memories of all the firsts. It is very exciting...and the best part is I have 3 other children to share it with and a wonderful husband! I cannot believe that I am going to be the mother of 4 kiddos!! First kid at 26...fourth kid at 29...now that crazy!!

Well...now kiddo #1 is in my room, so I am going to turn computer off...note to self...#4 will NEVER sleep in our bed....hard habit to break :)

My life as a Mommy....

Becoming a Mommy changes everything....and yet nothing at all. Prior to having a baby, my life consisted of hubby, work and my friends. The hubs and I were quite social. We enjoyed going out and eating at a great steak (The Ranch...yummy!), going to have wings and beer to watch a good game and staying up late and sleeping in late whenever possible. I also cherished my girl time with my best friends. We spent each and everything Thursday at a biker bar listening to friends of ours play music while we ate chips & queso while having a beer.

I LOVED my time out...my plans, my time schedule, my way....until that Thursday night that I took the test....and it showed two lines instead of just one. I was pregnant....and from that point on it wasn't about me. I then dove into any .com that mentioned pregnancy and baby, books that contained millions of names, and shopped on-line for anything that was little and cute. I broke the news to my closest girlfriends by an e-mail letting them know that I would not be on our annual girls trip because I would be 7 1/2 months pregnant....this was followed by many congratulatory e-mails and excitement! It made my heart swell to have such love and support!

But of course life happens and the excitement wears off...well for everyone except me because this was my first pregnancy...I was having a BABY! At first I was sad when I heard all the girls were going out...and I wouldn't be going...I would get the invite and have the best intentions, but by the time I got off work, I was so sleepy....bedtime was 8pm to me....and then as I got bigger, I didn't want to be the prego girl in the bar :) But then I realized...that I really didn't care...not that I didn't miss my girl time, but I knew that I would rather be home or with family talking about plans for the baby. Sitting on the couch and feeling the movement of my baby girl (which I found out on my 26th birthday....that was followed with a surprise party from my hubs and BF). Kev and I would just stare at my stomach...it never got old...after I had KK, it still never got old. We spent hours watching her sleep and watching her breathe in and out. Then seeing her smiles, and her tummy time turn to crawl time...which quickly turned into pulling up and walking. Now she entertains me with stories of her day and a vivid imagination.

My second pregnancy, I knew what was to come...and two of my girlfriends were pregnant for the first time. It was fun to tell stories and lean on each other for questions and concerns. It funny how things changed...they looked to me for answers!

I now enjoy my time home and the short hours I have with my kiddos at night before cooking dinner, doing laundry and washing clothes takes over. Sometimes I just let the house go crazy because I would rather have fun with my smiling and giggly children then do chores....and I have to tell myself that it is okay. My big evening out that I look forward too is loading up the kiddos and walking the mall or heading outside to run in the backyard.

So all and all....I still get to do what I want...but this time I get to share it with my kids. It is funny how priorities change from one part of life to the next....I felt content and fulfilled prior to kids with a great husband and family and friends....and then I had children, which all of a sudden filled me up even more...and has challenged me in a way that keeps me learning everyday. I love being a mom....I never knew I would this much. I have a new found respect for my mom and the love she had for all of us. It is such a protective love. I am so blessed.